It's Christmas time again and now you're home....

I've posted this song every year at Christmas time since 2006. But this year, that last verse is finally my truth. 

Mia is home.

I watched the video again and shed some tears of sadness for all those years of heartache. I haven't forgotten that pain. But those tears quickly turned to happy ones as I thought of my daughter.

She's not a dream anymore. She's real. She has a face, a beautiful smile, a personality all her own. And she is home, upstairs in her room, in her crib, wearing her penguin Christmas pajamas and sleeping peacefully.

I rocked her to sleep tonight and told her about all the Christmases I waited for her. After she dozed off I just kept rocking, listening to the sound of her breathing, feeling the warmth of her skin and the weight of her chubby little body against my chest..... and I said some prayers of gratitude.

Those years of waiting, of spending the holidays without a child, were so very hard. But I'm grateful that at the end of that... came this amazing little girl. Not just any little girl. This one.

She has made my life complete. She has filled my heart to overflowing. She has given me the greatest gift... motherhood.

Tonight I'm thankful. I am blessed.